name: loren leah
age: 17
location: usa
year: junior
bday: may 15th
sun sign: taurus
bloodtype: o+
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shitenshi dot net
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spoony@icybrian.com
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forte shiden
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Okay, I finally got something set up on my own server... I'm gonna forgo the CGI hassle for right now and just use Blogger. So check it out--
Title's going to change pretty soon, though.
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 08:54 a.m., Monday, May 20, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"What if he doesn't survive? He's worth a lot to me."
Did you know that in the entire original Star Wars trilogy, Boba Fett has only 5 lines? :P
Grr, I wanna see Episode 2 so bad. We were going to see it this weekend, but then I had to usher at graduation and then I came down with strep throat. -.-; It's not faaaaaair~...
Being an usher was interesting, though. And I'm glad I got to go to graduation...this is the first time I've ever been, and also the first time I was actually acquainted with any of the seniors. Bye bye, P.T. ;_; Lunch won't be the same without somebody to threaten my cat. And bye bye Josh and I hope that wasn't the last time I'll ever see you... o.o;
Arc the Lad is proving to be harder than I thought it would. I think I'm getting to the end of the game--we're headed back to the dungeon we visited at the very beginning, which is a cliché straight out of Fraundorf--and I keep getting creamed. o_x; Arc is like level 50 now, and everyone else is down in the 10s and 20s. I'm not sure how that happened. o_o;;
Well, school is almost over. I'm staying home today (which means I won't get the perfect attendance award, but oh well), which means that for me, there's only one and a half days of school left. :3
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 07:25 a.m., Monday, May 20, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"The moon to the tide/I can feel you inside..."
...
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 08:33 p.m., Tuesday, May 14, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"That stuffed-shirt, no-good, puffed-up peacock!"
Hey, cool. I had a Zenlike revelation while reading the FFN profile of a gal who writes both DBZ and Chrono Trigger: Vejiita/Bluma and Lucca/Magus are basically the exact same ship, just with different character designs (well, only slightly different, since this IS Toriyama Akira we're talking about). I mean, think about it; the characters are staggeringly similar. Lucca and Bluma are both genius scientist types (although I'd say Lucca is more "endearingly eccentric genius scientist", while Bluma is more "bitchy genius scientist" :P), Magus and Vejiita are both arrogant former royalty from destroyed kingdoms (er, or planets. Same idea) who seem to live for a fight, and are scarily fixated on one driving idea (destroying Lavos, or defeating Gokuu)... See what I'm talking about? o_O No wonder there's so many supporters of Lucca/Magus. They must all be Dragonball fans. :P
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 03:40 p.m., Monday, May 13, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"...A hero could save us/I'm not gonna stand here and wait..."
The above is from that Chad Kroeger song on the Spiderman soundtrack, which I have stuck in my head. :3 Is that Jeremy from OLP on the drums in the video? O.O
Lots has been going on in the past few days--it always seems to get busy near the end of school, but even more so this year. I had two field trips this week... one with the band to a leadership conference, the other with the Challenge program for our annual educational trip. I've got another one coming up next week... everyone who got in the 95th percentile or better on our state standardized test gets a day trip... this year we're seeing a baseball game. EWW. x_x; I hate sports. But a day off school is a day off school, either way, so I'm taking advantage of it.
Oh, and I get to go to the mall tomorrow. XD XD My annual birthday trip. It's gonna be a great deal of fun. But what sucks is... the only anime I really wanna buy right now is Prétear, but that hasn't been licensed in the US yet. Arrgh. I've never had this problem before, LOL... Please someone license the dang thing already!!!! ;_; *glomps Sasame and Hayate and Mannen and Shin and Himeno* I wanna see my beloved characters on something besides bad-quality RealVideo! ;_;
Well, I'm off. I could write about some serious stuff right now, but I'm not really in the mood for it. I'm in more of a bouncy birthday kinda mood. :P Later.
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 09:03 p.m., Friday, May 10, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"I know you're out there/Somewhere out there..."
The above is from Our Lady Peace's single, and doesn't really have anything to do with anything... I'm just running out of subject quotes, is all. :P
Arrgh. Life can be so frustrating sometimes. I got my hands on 28 episodes of Oniisama E today... but guess what? They're on Streamload, and I don't have a paid account. Free accounts can't download more than 10 megs at a time. And the smallest file is 12 megs. ><;;;
I had a bit of a talk with Rya, a couple days ago now. She got to talking about her romantic conceptions of the seventeenth/eighteenth centuries and stuff like that. Somehow I turned the conversation around to me, like I always do 9_9 and I told her this:
"...Love comes in many different forms. But there's sort of a requisite "caring" type thing in there. Like, what happens to another person actually affects you in some way. But people don't ever seem to affect me. I have fights with people, or they move away, or they die, and I can say I feel something about it, but I can't honestly mean it. Maybe I feel a mild sense of irritation just because of the simple fact of life, change. That's about it. I hate to assume, but the following phrase wants to come out assuming: You have no idea what it's like to walk around feeling like you're in a little bubble. Or your heart's made of ice, or something. And nothing matters. Nothing at all matters except for the fact that...nothing matters, nothing makes you feel for other people, no matter how hard you try to give a care. That would be the underlying point to my life, I guess. Me searching for something that could make me... feel."
God, doesn't that sound pathetic? It's embarrassing to read over. At the same time, as melodramatic as it is... it's pretty much the truth. I don't think I've ever flat-out just stated it like that before. Just perfectly straight like that... not even to myself, let alone to other people.
I want to say "it's scary". But guess what? It's not. It's an intellectual sense of what should be scary to a normal person. And that's about it.
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 03:44 p.m., Thursday, May 2, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
The late, great Kevin Smith--or, "What a way to end your Beltane."
...better known as Ares, from Xena: Warrior Princess...
has been dead since February. And I didn't know about it. For some reason, that's the most disturbing part about it.
Rest in peace, Mr. Smith. You're missed.
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 06:31 p.m., Tuesday, April 30, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"Uh... riiiiiight."
Here's an entry full of lovely religion/faith/belief stuff.
http://www.bloggerhead.com/religion/
Interactivism is a tongue-in-cheek encouragement of Internet etiquette.
http://www.churchofthegrey.com/
...Well, it seemed like a good idea at the time. :3 CotG is an actual religion, for the seeker and the freethinker...
http://www.otherkin.net
Not a religion, according to the Otherkin themselves, but a state of being. Are you a mystical being stuck in a human body? Or could you be? :P
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 04:03 p.m., Wednesday, April 24, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?
"You're in the middle of the ride..."
It was way past time to archive...I hadn't cleared this page since January. The above is from Jimmy Eat World's "The Middle"; a song which I can't listen to, along with all my OTHER music, because MY HEADPHONES BROKE and I FORGOT to get a new pair... -_-;;;;
Right now I feel so... I don't know. I guess discontented covers it, sort of. Maybe annoyed. Frustrated. Fed up. Sad, longing for something I can't have, maybe can't understand. Do you know how pathetic it makes me feel to sit here and quote Terra Branford, "What is love? I want to know now!" and wish I hadn't had such a sheltered childhood, and wonder if maybe it's not my upbringing, maybe it's just me? Maybe I'm just some kind of heartless, machinelike freak who's destined to feel frustrated and coldly logical for her whole life long and be embarrassed because she has to run around asking people, "What is love? What is sex? What is attraction?", because she can't understand it on her own?
How do you people learn these things anyway? How do you know, how do you understand? Is it some kind of instinct thing that I was just left out of?
I'm tired of feeling this way. And I'm so fucking tired of keeping everything inside. I want to LEAVE. I want to go far away and find a place where I can be myself, whoever that turns out to be. And I want to do it now, before the lack of it kills me.
Fat fucking chance, I guess. It'll make a good dream for tonight.
~loren leah glomped jarai @ 10:36 p.m., Saturday, April 20, 2002
~~~yak at her about it?